I've been in an online relationship for a year. I lied to my parents, saying I was going to work or study, and secretly saved up half a year's salary to buy a one-way ticket. I traveled alone to her city. I thought I was pursuing love, but it turned out I had fallen into an abyss.

When I first arrived in her city, unfamiliar with everything, I was scammed out of 5,000 yuan. That was the money I had saved through frugal living. I felt anxious and wronged, but thinking I would see her soon, I gritted my teeth and endured.
Later, I finally met her. Just like online, I was nervous but happy. We had a meal together and watched a movie. Throughout, I kept secretly looking at her, feeling that all the hardship, the effort to save money, and the heartbreak from being scammed were worth it.
After the movie, she said she needed to go back to her dorm to finish her homework. She had to leave. I stood there obediently, watching her walk away, secretly smiling to myself as her figure disappeared into the distance, feeling like I finally caught the happiness I wanted.
I dragged my luggage alone and found a cheap hotel to stay in. Lying on the bed, my mind was full of her. I kept tossing and turning, unable to sleep. I missed her so much that I put on my clothes and went downstairs to buy some late-night snacks, also wanting to get some fresh air to calm down.
But right at the hotel entrance, I saw a scene I will never forget in my life.
She wasn’t going back to her dorm. She was standing with a stranger guy. They hugged for a long, long time—so long that I was standing in the shadows, my hands and feet numb from the cold. Then, I saw her tiptoe and kiss that guy with my own eyes.
At that moment, all my joy, anticipation, and courage shattered completely.
Suddenly, I missed home. I missed my parents, the warm home-cooked meals, and how they would never lie to me. For someone I had never even met, I lied to my most loving parents, spent half a year’s savings, got scammed and played in a strange city, and in the end, this was the result.
My heart was suffocating, unable to breathe, so distressed I couldn’t speak, couldn’t even cry.
Right now, I don’t want to think about anything, don’t want to ask anything. I just want to play the NBA All-Star game, want to rank up. Is there anyone to play together? Let me temporarily forget all this heartbreak, forget this city that tore my heart out and left me stranded, forget this love that was a complete scam from start to finish.
It hurts so much. It hurts so badly I just want to hide in a game and take a breath. By the way, is there anyone up for some League of Legends? I’m online and waiting, really urgent.