We have known each other for so many years, and we have at least sincerely appreciated the times we've shared. These experiences have become a part of our lives. However, these experiences are very personal; in our hearts, reminiscing and expressing them is nothing to be ashamed of. They shouldn't become jokes for others to laugh at during their leisure. For you and me, they are precious; for spectators, they are just entertainment that quickly passes. Moreover, all of this is based on online speculation and rumors. Believing these rumors and harming oneself is the most unwise choice. My biggest concern is actually your health. I see you mentioning depression, fever, mood swings, and I sincerely hope you won't hurt yourself because of those online rumors and guesses. It's not worth it. I know you want to say something; just write it out and send it to me, isn't that enough? Many things, if spoken out, might just be seen as jokes by others, but in reality, the one who gets hurt in the end is often yourself.