On January 14, 2026, my assets finally surpassed 110,000. This number means a lot to me—having grown from just over 20,000, experiencing many ups and downs along the way.

Looking back on this journey, the last day of December 2025 was a turning point. That day, I achieved my first 50,000 target and was so excited that I made a post to remind myself to stay calm. But what happened? That very same night, I got greedy and retraced to 30,000, and then I even dropped to just over 10,000 at one point. I still remember that feeling of despair vividly.

I thought I had learned my lesson deeply, but on New Year’s Day, I made 3,000 USDT by trading shanzhai coins, bringing my assets back to 45,000. However, this rapid rise and fall became addictive. After getting used to the rollercoaster of shanzhai coins’ surges and dips, I simply couldn’t calm down. I kept telling myself to be steady, but I lost everything again in the next second, returning to 20,000.

The most painful part was the emotional rollercoaster. On the 9th and 10th, during important meetings, I was still staring at the K-line, feeling dazed. There was an unrealized loss of over 1,000 USDT on Binance, and other shanzhai coins kept making and losing money, causing my overall funds to decline continuously. The most heartbreaking thing was knowing I should cut losses, but out of stubbornness, I held on, which made it impossible to sleep at night.

Now I finally understand a truth: trading ability is not the hardest part; the hardest part is controlling your desires and emotions.